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2
Oct

Headstone Child

   Posted by: T-bird Tags: ,

(Halloween story from last year.)

 

Heaven… There’s no place on Earth that can even come close to its beauty! Ehrin knew that, and so did every other person who went there upon death. It was a shame that someone so young would find this out, but that carriage’s coach just wasn’t paying attention to the road.

It was just a typical day in paradise. She was playing with her old dog, Jester, when something started feeling wrong. It felt as though a weight had been attached to her leg, and speedily it pulled her through the cloud floor.

“JESTER!!!!” she shouted up to the dog. The dog only howled sorrowfully and watched her plummet to the Earth.

There was a sickening crunch as she landed on her back. She cried loudly and tried to move her wings. Even trying hurt. She sat up and looked back at them. They were now hanging limply, contorted.

With a sniffle, she stood up and looked at where she landed. Quickly, she recognized it as the graveyard where she had been buried… she wasn’t even sure how long it had been. Something was wrong, though. She knew this was the spot where her body lay, yet the headstone wasn’t there. There had certainly been one there!

“Ah… So THIS is Ehrin…” a deep voice laughed from behind her.

She whirled around, blonde curls bouncing on her shoulders. “Wh-who are you?” she asked.

A smile spread across the man’s lips. “Paul Hunter, m’lady,” he said, bowing deeply to her, black hair shimmering in the moonlight as dark eyes looked her over.

Her lower lip quivered. “Wh-what do you want with me?” she asked.

“Calm now, child,” he whispered. “Everything will be alright!”

“My wings! They hurt!” she whimpered.

“Don’t worry. It won’t last for long.” He draped an arm over her shoulders and led her away from the graveyard.

She tried to break away from him. “My headstone! I see it!” she cried, running toward a tiny stone leaning against the church. “I need it!”

Paul grabbed her arm. “No! You’re mine now!” he said, pulling her away. If she grabbed that tombstone, she would surely return to the afterlife. He’d already learned THAT lesson.

“LET GO!!!!” she shouted at him.

“No!” he hissed, dragging her from the graveyard. “I need you’re help, pesky brat!”

Tears began falling from her blue eyes. “B-but… Heaven! I have to go back!”

He continued to drag her away. “I have somewhere else for you to go. My bothersome sister needs to be taught a lesson, and you’re gonna help me teach it!”

She continued to cry, but to no avail, as Paul pulled her into a… motorized carriage?… and took her away from her graveyard. As she looked around at the faces of other tortured spirits, she abandoned all hope of ever returning to Heaven.

21
Aug

My Own Inward Turmoil

   Posted by: T-bird Tags: ,

 (I am not posting this to gain anyone’s approval nor do I want to hear any kind of feedback that my belief is false.  I will respect your beliefs if you will respect mine.)

I see the lies as they spread like fire:
That we are all the same,
That we have conformed to rules
Which were never really true.
Our book of rules is called a book of lies
Which has been “lost in translation.”
And many feel all we wish to do
Is shove our beliefs down your throat. 

A few people flaunt the name
As though it was a parade balloon,
And they have tried to change the minds
Of those who are callous to their belief.
They go as hypocrites and ignore the law
Which was written down centuries ago.
And people think because we bear the same name
We are all the same deep inside,
And we are full of lies. 

Yet tell me this:
If faith has made me stronger,
If prayer has saved my life,
If I have felt the hand of God,
If I know someone who has changed,
If jubilation comes with my love,
If I have witnessed to prophesy,
How Christianity can be false.

6
Jan

Mirror to Nowhere (Lyrical Poem)

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Every day I always look
Into my mirror to see my face.
Blank eyes stare back
And I turn away.
The one I wish to be
Is a face I’ll never see.
Who is it in the mirror?
This imposter of me?

It’s like a mirror to nowhere,
A face without a name.
A creation of this world,
Not my own reality.
I’d rather look in the mirror
And not see a thing at all
Because it’s a mirror to nowhere,
And no one can see.

And as I watch o’er this mirror
I feel the tears begin to form.
A stray rolls down my cheek
And I turn away.
That face so hideous
Does not belong to me.
Who is in this body?!
The controller of me?

It’s like a mirror to nowhere,
A face without a name.
A creation of this world,
Not my own reality.
I’d rather look in the mirror
And not see a thing at all
Because it’s a mirror to nowhere,
And no one can see.

Perhaps if this mirror is shattered,
Maybe then I’d finally see
That this mirror to nowhere
Can lead to somewhere indeed.
But for now…

It’s like a mirror to nowhere,
A face without a name.
A creation of this world,
Not my own reality.
I’d rather look in the mirror
And not see a thing at all
Because it’s a mirror to nowhere,
Just a mirror to nowhere.
It’s a mirror to nowhere,
And no one can see.

6
Jan

Meet Myself in Time (Lyrical Poem)

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I’m standing up
To stand out.
I’m reaching up
To reach out.

But that is now,
Not then.
That is here,
Not there.

Feared for life,
Feared for you,
Feared for love,
Feared for me.

Looking back upon myself,
Seeing through different eyes,
I wish I could talk to me.
I wish I could meet myself in time.

A new life
A new beginning.
An old life
An old beginning.

But that is my wish
Not reality.
That is my fantasy,
Not truth.

Feared for life,
Feared for you,
Feared for love,
Feared for me.

Looking back upon myself
Seeing through different eyes,
I wish I could talk to me.
I wish I could meet myself in time.

Loving my life,
Loving you,
Loving this love,
Loving me.

Looking forward upon myself,
Seeing through these eyes,
I wish I could talk to me.
I wish I could meet myself in time.

5
Jan

Intro to untitled

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This is an intro to a story I was writing during Nanowrimo to keep myself from going certifiably insane because I was constantly thinking about that one story nonstop.  It’s written from the point of view of the cheerleader captain for a high school football team called the Bears.

For most people, symptoms of being bitten by a werewolf appear immediately, but not for me. Oh, no. For most people, becoming a werewolf doesn’t come across as a total disaster because they’re now part dog, but it’s not that way for me. Most certainly not. So why is it that I had to be bitten on my way home from the big game last week instead of somebody who would have enjoyed it? Does that seem fair to you? It certainly doesn’t seem fair to me. Not in the least bit! So why is it that I am cursed to live in this body?

8
Aug

Falling

   Posted by: Kaylex Tags:

Could you tell me just what you’re doing?
Ignoring me from far away?
When every pretty word we ever said
Was the opposite in every way?
You claim to have been losing me
But I think you really just lost sight
It is I who has remained the same
And you who’s fallen from our friendship’s light.
I refuse to point my finger, though
I won’t shout and put you to blame,
It’s just I hurt inside from everything
Even the sound of your name.
Why isn’t it okay for me to do something
When you do the same yourself?
Why should I force myself to be what I’m not,
A cardboard copy from the shelf?
I am done living for you,
If you wish to return I won’t be there.
I won’t keep wishing and waiting
I will turn my back and walk away while you stare.

——-

about something from many years ago actually xD an online friend from a roleplay site

2
Jan

Puppetry

   Posted by: Kaylex Tags:

Alone and tired I sit around and think quietly to myself. Why did everything have to go all strange on me? Changes are natural but so many at once makes me wish the darkness would just swallow me up and never let me come back. No, I’m not going to end myself. That would just be stupid… or rather just too easy? Instead I sit through life’s suffering jabs and the loud shouting. The mental torture envelopes me. Yet I press on and then I remember what forgiveness REALLY sounds like: Screaming and then nothing more than stillness and silence…

Aleiko opened his eyes and panted. He quickly looked around. Seeing that there was nothing to be afraid of, the dragon calmed himself. He took a few moments to try to mop the red hair away from his brown scales… and found he could not. Then he recalled one crucial thing he had overlooked once again. His body was not his own to command. He was a living puppet at the disposal of his master, Lord Rafael.

The horrible nightmare of all his life’s sudden changes was true. For a moment he felt remorse… then nothing once more as Rafael’s iron hard grip forced itself stronger on his nerves. His friends Tiamat, Tatsu, and Thanthero would surely be upset now that they believed he willingly served the Raven Lord.

…And what of his fellow apprentice, Aisling? Surely she was crushed. Tia would try to comfort the dear girl but she would never be able to make up for the loss of Lei. Even Aleiko himself could not make up for it now. He was trapped and controlled.

—-

“I’m beaten down again, I belong to them. Beaten down again, I’ve failed you.” ~ Seether, “Truth”

28
Nov

I Lost Everything

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I told him everything.
I gave him everything.
I knew everything.
Then I lost everything.

He was my dearest friend.
He was the one I confided in.
He was the one who knew everything.
And I lost everything.

I thought I knew him.
I thought he knew me.
I thought we knew eachother.
Still, I lost everything.

He was my friend,
But he was his friend,
And he was my enemy.
So I lost everything.

Maybe I was wrong.
Maybe he was right.
Maybe he lost everything.
Maybe I lost nothing.

18
Oct

Love

   Posted by: Kaylex Tags:

A flash of light
Across the scales and eyes
Bats away the darkness
Of demise
It saves the soul
And heals the wounds of time
Love conquering the shadow
Spread over like an ocean
But not cold as water is
Rather warm and welcoming…
Something one must earn
Yet equally give

18
Oct

Muse and Contemplation

   Posted by: Kaylex Tags:

The night was a time for peace,
A time for healing.
A time for sleep.
Humming the bars of a song
The Gate-walkers step
Through the portal
Into the realm of war and peace.
Where sits the gathering gloom
Lifts the fading fog.
This was what eternal meant
And shall always mean.